CoMpLiCaTeD gUrL.

Updates~

2012-02-11T20:23:00.001+08:00

Hi zombie blog~

i've finished my O's and recieved my results.
Now, time to lepak.
:)

Nahhhh, just joking~

I almost got posted to Temasek but in the end went to RP. Perhaps, all the ASSHOLES THAT ARE SUPPOSED TO GO JC WENT TO THE POLY I WANT.

Lol~

Okokok~
The course i'll be studying would be Integrated Events Management.

I hope i'll learn something there instead of wasting time.

Oh yeah, I HAVE GROWN TALLER.
YAY~ ^_____^

I'm Approximately...161cm.
And wish to grow even taller. :)

Gambatei~~
Fighting~~~
Jiayo~~~~

BYEEEEE.......

Yo.

2012-01-19T20:29:00.001+08:00

Hi blog that's very dead.

When u get mad at people, just look at the picture below. :)
;)

I'm tired.

2011-10-11T00:24:00.001+08:00

Tired like crap.
:(
Too tired to write more.
BYE.

I. NEED. TO. WAKE. UP!

2011-10-07T22:16:00.001+08:00

I still feel that i haven't 'woke up' yet.
:(

Scared i might do sth that i'll regret.

Maybe, i need more motivation.

But, where the hell can i get my motivation from?!?!!!???

Urgh.

My inner feelings....are going to explode.

One day.

I might just go crazy.

I NEED TO REVISE SO BADLY! BUT I JUST FEEL SO FREAKING TIRED. WTH SIA. :(

Eyes.

2011-10-07T22:12:00.001+08:00

Just like Mak said, the gaze....the things... things that ur eyes are trying to say the words that ur mouth can't.

So similar. Just like history...which repeats.

The way u speak to me...smiling n talking...eyes...
Boy, ur eyes are beautiful. :)

I could just re-fall in love with u again.
But we have no chance. We only have this....fate. Passed down to us.

But it is alr decided.
That this fate is only gonna stop here. With us.
Not decided by us though, by the adults.

When we were young, i admit...i really liked you.
For real.

Said too much..
Bye-yum~

DAMN SAD LIFE ARH......

2011-09-28T22:58:00.001+08:00

Kana AGAIN.
WTH SIA. IT'S LIKE THIS MONTH FREAKING SUAY SIA.
DAMN, KEEP BLEEDING and GETTING HURT.

Pain pain. :(

T-T

痛。

I take picture give u see....
:(

Do u noe how sad it is...?

2011-09-25T16:46:00.001+08:00

When u're injured and NO ONE noes it. And u have to tell them that u're injured to let them noe.

Maybe, i'm just so tiny to everyone.
So 不起眼。
Maybe, i'm just their temporary friend.

But they dun noe me, they dun noe my ttue feelings.

Maybe, in this world, the only one who can truely see me is ME.

Okay, i shall stop here.
I'm teary now.
I gotta go do my hw.
Byes. :')

:(
T~T

Hey, wanna know a secret?

I was almost aborted.
:')

Nuff said.

Somethings are best not to be spoken.

Kay, bye.

U noe what?

2011-09-25T16:40:00.001+08:00

For once, i wished somebody loved me.

:')

For someone to hug me and tell me "everything gonna be alrite."

Me and my wishful thinkings.
:')

For once, i just wan to run w/o fear.
For once, i wanna live my live w/o asthma.

For once, i wanna love properly.
For once, i wanna smile bcoz i am happy.
For once, i wanna be crying bcoz i'm happy.
For once, i wanna eat ANYTHING i wan w/o getting FUCKING fat.

For once.

I'm now typing this with sad violin music playing in the BGM.....

I sounded very despo huh...... :)

It's tough to wait sooooooo long~~~~~

I'll try my best ok... :)

Hurt.

2011-09-25T16:33:00.001+08:00

Yesterday i hurt my toes...
:(
T-T it hurt badly even though it's a small wound....

My dream i dreamt.

2011-09-24T17:33:00.001+08:00

I dreamt that a handful amount of 4I was travelling....
ON AN ELEPHANT.
Mr Sim was there and he keep on talking about physics.

Then, the elephants went towards a window. We were falling, falling, falling.
It almost seemed that i would never end. When we were falling my eyes were closed...but i opened my eyes again, to see how far we are from the bottom.
After that, i closed my eyes again...
We continued falling and suddenly, i couldn't breathe!

THIS DREAM WAS WEIRD BECAUSE IT GOT INTERRUPTED.

The next scene was at some restaurant. I dunno wat i did but i wasn't wearing a top. I was naked. WTH RIGHT????
I cover myself with my hands as i waited....DUNNO WAT FOR.
I rmb slightly i was scolding Germaine... Sth about the clothes.

Then, in the restaurant, there was a lot of people. I spotted Yazid, Leonard, Xin Hui, Germaine...

DAMN! SO FREAKING WEIRD!

AND IT WAS INTERRUPTED AGAIN.

This time i was in a building, i was drinking small cans of SOMETHING and saw Gz juniors....they say bad stuffs to me while they passed me and they did this over again for three times. I could feel that i was very upset in the dream and there was pressure on my chest.
THEN THE SCENE CHANGED AGAIN.

I was in some kind of a shopping mall...i guess....the location wasn't clear.
Xin Hui wore a Custome which make her look like ChunLi.....I DUNNO WHY........O.O

THEN, FINALLY, THE LAST SCENE.

Mum, Sean and I went to some place that is SIMILAR to the Universal Studio...but it was obvious that it wasn't Universal Studio(SG one).

I can't rmb the last scene well....
We were sitting at a Cafe or sth...
THEN I SUDDENLY WOKE UP.
WAT THE HECK SIA.

Today's date is 24 Sept 2011.
This is the weird dream i had when i was napping....

Lol~~~ random shitz.

2011-09-19T20:56:00.001+08:00

EVERYDAY I'M SUFFERING~~~~

Once a loner, always a loner.

2011-09-18T01:08:00.001+08:00

Expected
One
De
Mah.

Guess wat.

2011-09-18T01:05:00.001+08:00

Nobody gives a FUCK.

Yay.

Hmph!

HUMANITY AND ITS COMPASSIONATE PPL.

MiNd blown stuffs

2011-09-16T15:56:00.001+08:00

Results.

THEY SUCK HARDCORE.
:(

I dunno how to explain to mum sia.

Also,
The things that i NEVER learn yet.
this is extremely bad coz i know NOTHING of this chapter.

KAYS, I shall stop here.

Going bathe. Bye-yum.

MAYBE IT Is True....

2011-09-16T15:54:00.001+08:00

#Sagittarius falls in love as easy as they catch a cold, especially if she/he is cute, funny and has a strong personality.

To my spects~~~

2011-09-13T00:11:00.001+08:00

Luv you very much~~~~~~

Black-frammies~~~~

Act cute photos below~~~~~~

中秋节~~~~^_^

2011-09-12T23:58:00.001+08:00

HI-YUM!!!!!!!!!

XD

TONIGHT WAS FUN!!!!!!!

PLAYED FIREWORKS AND MY BRO WAS DAMN SCARED. HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA~~~~~

Pictures shall do the talking for me. :)

Hello~~~~

2011-08-28T23:57:00.001+08:00

Long time no see.
Today, i went through torture!
Face and hair torture! T-T REALLY PAINFUL SIA!!!!!!!
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恋个爱，有那么难吗？

Qns of the day.

Hi yummies~~~~

2011-07-21T00:11:00.001+08:00

I must be very bored. -_-
Arghhhhh~~~~ molla mollaseo! Michigesso!!!! T-T I 've gone crazy. I want my specs!!! T.T

:(

2011-07-04T01:17:00.001+08:00

My spirit's broken down..... :( by ** ....he moved on, but why can't i? His gf... Urgh. Dun even wanna say more...

I keep on looking back, coz i can't look infront... Coz it's dark. :( so lost right now. :( I....some of my rants are alr on twitter. So go see.. i really wonder, who will be there for me? I hate being alone! I hate that! Haiz. So hard to move on.

Meows~

2011-06-24T12:57:00.001+08:00

Nya nya nya nyan! Mewl!

Okay. Lol. I'll stop that.

My bday wishlist will have: guitar, bicycle! Will think of more soon!

Oh btw, recently, "who says" by Selena Gomez inspired me! :)

Quite a short post ah?
Hehe.
BYE-YUM!!!!! XD

Die

2011-06-19T05:23:00.001+08:00

On 18june, i slept at 5.23am. If this goes on...my dark eye circles...... T-T nites!

Saggi report!

2011-06-18T14:18:00.001+08:00

1、有人觉得射手MM太飘、忽冷忽热、捉摸不定……其实呢，因为她没有喜欢上你！射手的世界是美好的，她不愿意伤害任何人，拒绝一个人会让她感到内疚，所以，她并不是吊着你。只要你愿意，她会真心的把你当做朋友。

　　2、我想说，射手的世界没有感动。她注重感觉，如果一开始没有在心里认定你，那么就别想日久生情！可是，一旦认定了，她就会轰轰烈烈、毫无保留的付出。因为她的纯、她的真，总是不计回报，即便是千疮百孔、伤痕累累，也会笑着对你说：我很好，你不用担心我。

　　3、受伤了、心痛了，怎么办呢？假装坚强！人前放肆的笑，人后狠命的哭！当所有人都以为她已经痊愈，谈笑风生的时候，却不知每晚的她是如何与泪水共度。闹腾的背后，有的是一颗孤寂、软弱的心。射手的面具太简单了，永远只有一张笑脸。

　　4、知道吗？射手女很重感情，一旦被伤了，很难愈合。如果你总是看到嘻嘻哈哈、身在花丛飞舞的射手，请不要指责她们的花心、胡闹，因为她们的心曾经碎过。也许一切，不过是欲盖弥彰。

　　假若你问一个射手女：恨那个伤害你的人吗？她会摇摇头，微笑着告诉你：Never。

　　是的，很傻。容易轻信他人，被骗，却永远学不会恨。习惯了找一个角落默默地舔舐伤口，不断告诉自己：要加油，要放下他，要开始新的生活。可是呢？殊不知那个人早已在心灵扎根……一种不可触及的隐忍之痛。

Asses

2011-06-18T02:43:00.001+08:00

URGH. Wat the hell!
I felt miserable again.....i really......need to find someone to break my walls or i'll go crazy!
Sometimes, i really am a pathetic coward. I hate my pathetic self so much. Haiz.

Feeling Pathetic Again. Haiz.

2011-06-17T01:07:00.001+08:00

http://29.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lmtfdfPt7o1qbpwzeo1_500.jpg

Found A few nice pictures!~~

2011-06-15T20:08:00.000+08:00

SOME ARE FROM LOVE QUOTES(mOSTLY)~~~

THE ONE Above REALLY SAYS OUT WAT I WANTED TO SAY TO HIM.

THIS TOO~

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MORE EPIC ONES!!!!!

SO FREAKING TRUE.

TO MUM. The pic above AND BELOW.

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If ONLY happiness was THIS EASY.

MY CONFESSION~~~~~

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------MORE MORE MORE PICTURES!!!!! OR RATHER, QUOTES!~

MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TO BE CONTINUED!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~

Lol

2011-06-12T12:27:00.001+08:00

出现[ ] 的朋友性情豪放的性格男英俊度：★★★★★
你未来另一半的样子属于有个性的艺术家类型，他是一个有主见有想法的人，因为他同样是不走寻常路的新女性，所以两个才投缘走到一起。恋爱中的他有一肚子的浪漫点子，每次约会都带给你不同的惊喜，婚后的他依然不改自己的嗜好，说不定他会将你们的小家布置得像动物园或二战战场那样哦！有可能他非常迷恋模型或电玩，花在这些方面上的钱不少，你最好看紧他的荷包，别搞得入不敷出啦！

Like kyu! Lol! Does this mean i will marry a game-addict? Lol!

Saggi :)

2011-06-12T01:41:00.001+08:00

常常听到别人说射手座的女人很花心，其实射手骨子里是一个对感情极其认真的人！她们可以爱一个人很久很久，遇到爱情时，怕爱---深爱，射手座会因为深爱一个人而原谅他的背叛、会因为你的一句话付出很多。无论谁的错，他们都会包容。
人们总觉得射手座的世界很快乐，可是呢？射手座难过时没有人知道，她不想让别人可怜自己，射手座不坚强，可是很善良，在你难过时哄你开心，让你有依靠。分手后，她会哭着去想属于你们俩幸福的回忆，她比谁都希望自己爱的人快乐幸福，却常常忽略了自己。全身都是伤也笑着告诉你：“我很好不用担心！”在所有人看到她的笑容以为她没事，却不知道失恋对射手座有多大伤害。一颗脆弱的需要别人了解和安慰的心，知道嘛？你的一点关心，心思细腻的射手座会记得你对她的好！
射手座是不被了解的，可她们不会怨谁，她们会傻傻的认为：“让我承担吧！别让别人也受到伤害。” 不要让快乐的射手座痛苦，别让她们最有魅力的笑容成为掩饰痛苦的伪装。认真爱射手座你会知道射手座的爱是充满泪水的....
射手座是大孩子，真与善良，遇到爱情时，可能让人感觉不认真，付出的比谁都少。可是，知道吗？射手座很想爱，却也很怕爱！刚开始她们只是慢慢的付出，谨慎的爱，好怕自己会受伤！可是在一句一句的爱，一天一天的相处下射手座把带刺的防备丢掉，开始不顾一切的去爱她们所爱的人。在别人的眼中，那只是射手座为了达到某种目的而作的行动。可射手座不介意，她会在自己幸福的想象中陶醉。希望对方能感受自己的爱，想对方觉得与自己一起是幸福的。如果她说爱你，起码是真的喜欢你的，射手座的人无法和没有感觉的人在一起，就算是做戏，也不愿！没有人能逼得了让她跟不喜欢的人共处，她不懂得怎么爱，不懂得关心和体贴？不懂得心爱的人眼泪背后的辛酸，但是却会全心全意地爱着你。
当射手座爱上了一个人，她会把自己放到最后，有苦自己承担。可能会因为吵了一场小架而不开心，却也是最快认错，无论谁的错，她们都会包容。知道吗？射手座会因为深爱一个人而原谅他的背叛，会因为你的一句话付出很多！她们爱玩，在玩的同时，也希望把那一份好心情带给你，射手座是乐观的！优雅的、高尚的、值得品味的。而真正能让她们觉得值得交朋友或谈恋爱的人是很少，虽然表面上她们是很随和的。

她极易满足极易感动极易遗忘极易受伤极易犯错

射手座女人是自负和自卑交叉的那一个点
射手座女人是白天和黑夜交替的那一瞬间

射手座女人情绪波动较大，为一件事可以心情突然就阴翳下来，有时候无由来的烦躁、忧郁。但射手座女人心地很善良，喜爱孩子，同情弱者，常常喜欢打抱不平，敢爱敢恨。
射手座女人自尊心很强，比较自我、敏感，也很脆弱。当觉得被轻视、被误解的时候会很气愤。对把握不了的事情宁愿放弃，因为那样会让她没有安全感。漂浮的感觉常常让她们迷茫，最重要的是，她们很不喜欢这种找不到自己的感觉。
射手座女人喜欢自由，这是心灵和身体的自由，她们常常很率性的做着喜欢做的事情，说着想说的话。这样让她们觉得快乐。
射手座女人思维非常跳跃，不时有新点子冒出来，喜欢作弄人，有时候乐得像个孩子。喜欢新奇的事物，什么都愿意去尝试一下。
射手座女人喜欢美好的事物，动听的音乐、漂亮的图画、大自然的山水都让她们深深痴迷。这也是她们喜欢文字的原因，文字可以把她们带到美好的幻想里自由地飞翔。
射手座女人对自己有着要求：做什么事情都不甘于人后，做什么都比较认真，做就要做好。在伟大的人生理想面前，射手座可以为了把一件事做得尽善尽美而忽略物质利益。射手座女生对喜欢的人会亲切而热情，对不喜欢的人就不太顾及别人的感受了。不是不愿意做得圆滑一些，而是觉得实在没有这个必要。
射手座女人最大的优点就是宽容，但也有不少缺点，比如淘气得让你头疼，任性起来很任性，还缺心眼。
射手座女人可能永远都在不清楚自己到底想要什么，但她一定很清楚，她不需要什么。她喜欢坐在幕后当看客，像一个看戏的人，永远置身事外。
射手座的女人，常常给人以聪慧、幽默、独特的感觉，但她们又似乎是矛盾的综合体，既低调又高调，既温柔又冷漠，既现实又脱俗。欧洲占星师说过：她们热烈追求友谊，却又要给自己一片孤独的天空。这就是热情而孤僻的综合体。
有时喜欢被人宠，不过只有当那人是自己人才会这样，也只有在自己人面前才会有一些任性的一面。可以这样说，希望对方能包容自己这一面。宠就是希望她不开心时对方能安慰她，既使她当时做错了也不要直接地说“你做错了”。她喜欢叫对方帮她做事，也是当对方是自己人的一种表现。如果她对另一方永远是温文有礼，几乎是没麻烦过做什么事，大概还没当对方是自己人。她不太喜欢麻烦别人，有事宁愿自己做。除非是别人问起是否需要帮助或她自己有些确实做不好的事。

她这样的人，心底都有着一段刻骨铭心的记忆，一个永远无法忘记的背影。那也许只是极其短暂的两情相悦，只是一种单恋，或许只是一种只存在于虚幻空间的心。一切看起来是那么平静，那么和谐。没有惊天动地，没有海誓山盟，没有花前月下，没有浪漫，没有誓言，没有温度。她的理智和冷漠，注定了任何感情永无燃点。

One more post!

2011-06-09T22:51:00.001+08:00

I'M SO CHILDISH!

I will sometimes re-read my posts.

AnD i fEel DUMB!

The way i phrase my words, the way i express my feelings.....CHILDiSH!

Aish! Even I can't stand it. -,-

Kay.
BYE!

And...one short post.

2011-06-09T22:49:00.001+08:00

New purse/wallet!!!! :)

DONE! (Told ya' it's short alr..... )

Bye!

:)

Hmmm...

2011-06-09T22:47:00.001+08:00

I gotta feeling he's avoiding me. I have no idea why...... Did i do anything?? O.o i dun think have bah. I dun...hate him. Btw, for me the MOST is only dun-like(for humans). BUT, if the person purposely make me hate her/him..then maybe i'll hate the person.

DONE.

BYE!

:)

By the way.

2011-06-04T02:04:00.001+08:00

Btw, i noe i just posted that i'm gonna sleep.....

BUT! I wanna say sth...,., I noe that i use Vulgarities more a little now n then but it's mostly is bcoz i'm being too emotional.

Kay. Bye!

Sucks being me.

2011-06-04T01:56:00.001+08:00

Was reminded of A18..... Although we went separate ways already.. I admit, i still a little sad n regret a tiny bit. Saw his fb page. He grew and changed. He looks really mature right now. (Lol. Wat the.)
I kept on hanging on to the past. Why? Dunno.

That's why IT SUCKS BEING ME.

And why i can't be strong n move on?

Coz I CAN'T FORGET. Fcuk!

"It's a part of ur memory, ur experience"
~ said so by Michelle

"ur on my heart just like a tattoo"
~lyrics from Tattoo sung by Jordin Sparks.

I'm moping....aiya, wth.

I guess that's why you should not play with fire.
First, u get hurt.
Secondly, it left u with a scar.
Thirdly, it's gonna be there forever and there's nth u can do.
Fourth, u'll be more wary of people.
Fifth, it WILL change ur life.

I contacted with love to early.
It sucks being me!
I think too much.
It's one-sided love, perhaps.
U treated it like it's a child's play.
It was nvr real to u.
U FUCKING toyed with my feelings.
I hate u!
I still miss u. A little.
I miss the sweet times.

FUCK LOVE!

Imma go sleep now. It's 1,54am now!

FUCK LOVE,

Bye-yum!

I HATE LOVE.

LOVE SUCKS.

Bye,

Cerrene. :(

Ytd.........So so.

2011-06-01T07:38:00.001+08:00

Today's oral sucks like hell.

Like toilet bowl sucking all the faeces down.

Exasperated!!!!!!! Grrrrrrr~~~

OK. Done with this part.
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Went to walk/run/jump/dance/sing with SALOMA. Whose real name is Sofeah. XD

Walked more than 2.4km obviously....
From my house, to her house, to yishun park, to NorthBrooks, to Bottle Tree Park, Yishun Stadium and back to my house. Lol. Epic!

Took photos....will be posting them soon. :)

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Bought beast ticket!!! 1st asian fanmeeting thing. XD

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I figured wat sofeah say is right. :)
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Almost done.

Bye first!

A Warning to YOU.

2011-05-29T17:09:00.001+08:00

If u dun like me, DON'T GIVE ME THE WRONG IDEA.

If u have no interest in me, dun flirt with me.

If u only wan to be friends, JUST SAY.

If u hate me.... Pls, go fcuk urself.

If u dare to bad mouth me, dun say it behind my back. JUST SAY IT TO MY FACE.( Oh, i forgot to tell ya that by doing this u'll need to face CONSEQuENCES)

If u like to copy my statements SO MUCH, u tell me directly and i'll write a list of my statements for ya. (or not)

If u dun like my music, SAY IT IN A NICE WAY...OR I'LL WHACK Ur Friggin face till it becomes concave.

If u dun like me, WHY Bother hang around me? Get lost!

If u dun like me, U'LL PROBABLy REGRET!

COZ i'm THE best friend that U'LL NEVER GET.(unless u try to be friends with me...provided that u are a nice person) :P

If u hate me, WHY DO U STILL TALK ABT ME?

Thats abt all i wanna say.... Oops!

ONE LAST THING:

If u like/love me, dun be afraid to tell/show/prove to me.

All da PPL, Understand?!?!?

Take note of this warning.

Muacks,
Cerrene Leong Wye Lin aka Kaerin aka KCL. <3

Lol.

2011-05-29T16:54:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, after typing that long list of "i hate" i grew tired and fell asleep for 3hrs. LOL.

I think the "i hate" list is not complete yet. LOL.

I didn't study much for chinese. LOL.

Tmr CHINESE O LEVEL. I hope I DON'T DIE. LOL.

I'm hurt. LOL.

I'm kinda lost again. LOL.

I am going emo again. LOL.

I feel confused again. LOL.

I use LOL for fun. LOL.

I feel sarcastic. LOL.

Wat to do?

I noe that studies is important and i'm not studying right now. WTH!

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I watch kung fu panda 2 ytd.
PO IS CUTE. LOL!

Only when he is a BABY. LOL.

Movie was average. And i think there would be a kUNGFU PANDA 3.

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I really should studying right now.

ARGHHHHHHH.

Bye.
Off to study. (maybe)

Crosses and Kisses,
Kaerin.

Hate.

2011-05-28T18:10:00.001+08:00

I freaking hate my brother.
I hate ppl who smokes around me.
I hate ppl who are FUCKING arrogant.(a lil emotional here, sorry.)
I hate flirts.
I hate jl.
I hate rt.
I hate love.
I hate my asthma.
I hate that i'm often breathless.
I hate being alone.
I hate that i have to agree with other ppl even though i don't.
I hate homework.
I hate fake ppl.
I hate to do reflections.
I hate the ppl that i dun like even though i dunno why i dun like them. (it's their face..maybe?)
I hate to put up a show.
I hate when ppl asks me qns when i'm having an asthma attack.
I hate when ppl ask me stupid qns.
I hate myself.
I hate my outer personality.
I hate to act like someone else that is NOT me.
I hate being sad, lonely, afraid, unhappy, emo.
I hate that pain will come if i hurt myself.
I hate that ppl thinks i'm shallow.
I hate the ppl say bad things about me. FUCK U!

I hate ppl who hate me. Fuck off BATCH!
I hate act like i dun care but inside i'm hurting.
I hate that i act like a different person 70% of the time.
I hate that singapore only hires u if u have the "papers" instead of ur capability and talent.
I hate that the other races always win sg idol.
I hate the "i hack care" attitude.
I hate the "why" s.
I hate when i HAVE to eat even if i dun feel like eating.
I hate it bcoz i fall for the wrong dude.
I hate it bcoz Mr Right won't come faster.
I hate it bcoz i can't find someone who i can be totally comfortable with.
I hate the ppl who are skinny even when all they do is FUCKING EAT LIKE A PIG.
I hate the FACT that i will gain weight even though i didn't eat a lot.
I hate the fact that no one loves the real me.
I hate the fact that other ppl likes my fake me more than the real me.
I hate the fact that i feel VERY insecure at times.
I hate that we're all gonna die soon.
I hate that money makes the world go.
I hate the fact that SWEET THINGS MAKES PPL FAT.
I hate that all the things i like are either illegal, fattening, harmful and impossible.
I hate the fact that i purposely forget stuffs.
I hate the fact that i have a brother.
I hate that i have "divided" attention from my parents.
I hate the fact that i'm stupid and useless.
I hate that my parents over protect me.
I hate that i always have to give way toy brother. ONLY BCOZ HE IS YOUNGER THAN ME.
I hate that i force myself to act.
I hate it when ppl insult my Ks.
I hate it when PPL WHO R REALLY STUPID that the dun understand me.
I hate ppl who speak english with their FUCKING ACCENTS which makes it difficult for me to understand WAT THE FUCK they are talking abt.
I hate ppl who over-use vulgarities.
I hate that cupid shoots his arrows randomly.
I hate that i have to pick up PIECES OF MY BROKEN HEART.
I hate that my parents smokes.
In short, I kinda HATE MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.
FUCK MY LIFE.
Bye.

Yo ho. =] It's me again~

2011-05-27T16:47:00.000+08:00

Today is THE DAY. PARENT-TEACHER CONFERENCE. LOL.

I didn't get much scolding but more of naggin. but it's GOOD NAGGING(1st time see eh?)

Maths....okok? CAN BE IMPROVED!!!!!!!!!! (Btw, one good news.....I GOING BAND 1! YESSSS!)
English...NEED TO IMPROVE.
Chinese....SAME LOH. MUST IMPROVE ALSO.
Lit...FREAKING LUCKY. MUST KEEP IT UP OR DO EVEN BETTER! (YOSH! JIAYOS JIAYOS!)\
Combined Hu...CUI. Need more focus on this subject.
Combined Sci...NEED TO STUDY LAH. COZ DIDN'T REVISE.

SO THIS IS WAT I GET FOR HARDLY STUDYING.

MEANS........ STUDY MORE=EXCELLENT RESULTS.
DiDn't Study= Inconsistent results (LOL, as shown above)

NEED TO IMPROVE ON HAND WRITING! FREAKING IMPORTANT. (also coz got quite a number of teacher complain alr....:P)

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.............

YEAH.

STUDY HARDER. =]

MT O levels coming soon...(JIAYOS!)

BYE-YUM!

Dear Diary/Blog,
Dun Miss Me TOO MUCH. XD

SAYONARA!~~~~~~~~~ <3

BUSY BUSY BUSY!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2011-03-13T13:47:00.000+08:00

Coz i've been busy, that's why soooooo long never update blog!~~~~~~~~~

Yeah, glad u got it!~ clever eh!~ XD

SO, Yeah, HAIZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This year got TWO Major stuffs!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

NUMBER ONEEEEEEEEEEEE!~
O ‘level's!~ T . T

NUMBER TWOOOOOO!~

SYF....................................

YUp, see this face, u'll understand.

I'm gonna say it anyways..................GUZHENG GIRLS, PAI MIA ONLY. NO HOILDAY, NO LIFE. AS IF LIFE REVOVLES AROUND GUZHENG ONLY.

WELL, COMPLAIN ALSO NO USE~~ we train and train n train.....hope this year syf will be good.

Putting away these stuffs, I got sth else wanna say!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

HAHAHAHAHAHA, I LOVE KARMA.

why? coz mp got WAT SHE DESERVES. MUhAHAHAHA!

Constant staring by RT's new gf. Makes her miserable n irritated. ;D

this punishment is light but still..... IT MAKES MY DAY!~~~~~~~

Btw, i wonder RT's gf Pretty or not.....but u see rt face now.....so nerdy....maybe HAHAHHAHAHAHA.

HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Uh, the face kinda-scared-me-a-little........O_O

anyways!~ MP complaining to me.....MAKES MY DAY!~ i noe lah, i'm evil....but i'm only a lil' bit evil. =]

FOR

Heart affairs ah...................i think i should put it aside for a while but it's hard. can't stop looking at profile. hahaha....is this stalking? LOL. I better control myself. *controls self* OKAY!~

Oh, and one more thing POLLINATION. X_X the teacher(can't reveal name and also, i dunno the name XP) is soooo open-minded. BETTER THAN MR Sr S--.

WOAH...short post but yeah....that's all for now!~

JA, MATA NE!~ <3

[LATE POST] Got mood to blog suddenly!?!?

2011-03-13T13:26:00.000+08:00

Troubled by heart affairs as well as studies. Just now go see other's ppl blog... Mine ah, aiyo, no life no life!!!! Haiz. I have no life lahhh. When ur sec 4, do u REALLY have no life? All i wan now is to forget heart affairs for the few months and i'll promise to go settle it!! Aiya, i kaypo...now noe too much. If ONLY the rain could wash away my pain...or could numb my pain for a few months! T^T.... If only i didn't noe love. Lol.Too late. Heart:been broken/ been emoing/being crazy/acting to be OK. Now i reaally dun like whwn ppl ask me "u ok or not?" coz i'm OBVIOUSLY NOT OKAY. Yup, too young to love huh? Wat nonsense! Why why why why why why why why!?!!?!?! If only i didn't left my hp outside while i was bathing...if only i could noe more abt u..if only u didn't ask to....if only i haven't met u...if only i didn't added u on msn. These "if only" are just my rantings for ur info. If only u lived nearer. :( if only u really came to my house and not just SAY only.

Wth, btw just found out my back-stabber is mr m's primary school classmate. Wat THE hELL. Wat a Small world, man!

Hello, Hello!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-11-13T01:19:00.000+08:00

WOAH. SO LONG NVR UPDATE! COZ OF GZ N EXAMS MAH!~~~~~~~~

OK! tell u about CHANGSHA TRIP FIRST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i summarise ah!

the tour guide is really very caring n bubbly to us~~~~ her name is WANG MEI NU~

I can't eat most of the dishes there. COZ GOT CHILLI. AND I DUN LIKE CHILLI.

HOTEL: Orange Inn. creepy,scary, disturbing, nothing for me to eat(coz 10% no chilli).

We went to Nanya~~~~~~~

They are all really very compassionate to us! >_____<~
(i noe i'm so very shallow)
Got shuai geS~~~~~~but all young than us.
NEVER GO YALI.

but got go Beiya~~~~~~~~~~~~~

GOT SHUAI GE~~~~~~~~~

name: SHU YU TAO~

FREAKING TALL SIA! CUTE FACE WITH DIMPLES!~~~~BUT, younger than us AGAIN. but one year younger only.....he plays the basketball. NO WONDER HE SO TALL...RIGHT? Kya~~~~~~~~

BUT KIKWANG STILL NUMBER ONE HOR.....
kekekekekeke~~~~~~

NEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHINEE's REPACKED ALBUM
this song: Hello~

VELI VELI VELI NICE~(indian accent)

NEXT, BEAST's 4TH ALBUM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kya kya~~

my kiwi so cute in the teasers sia~

all songs are released!!!!!!!!

1. Light will go on
2.Beautiful
3.I like u the best
4.Lightless
5.I'm Sorry

It's pretty late le!
NOw it's 1:18am. I GOING SLEEP LE LAH.

tmr i go QQ, see the shuai ge online alr or not....

HAHAHAHAS. LOL MUCH?

I'M SIAO.

2010-10-03T01:23:00.000+08:00

HI-YUM~~~~~~

LOOKY @ THE TIME NOW~~~~~

it's like 1.18am~~~~~

STILL HAVEN SLEEP XD

BEAST'S AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!~

but a little bit disappointed bcoz of dong woon's hair....looks like CHOI MINHO's. T~Tsad!

Oh well, their song is still sad but got one more not sad song.

IT'S............................VIU (VERY IMPORTANT U)

LOVE IT!~

HATE EXAMS LAH~~~~~~~~~~
HAIYO~ still have some much to go.

meanwhile, let's put ur heads down for 2minutes and mourn for MRS LEE (not me lah).

She is Mr LEE KUAN YEW'S WIFE.

SHE'S RIP and she passed away peacefully @ age of 89.....

wish her all the best up stairs~~~~

gotta go.

BYE-YUM,

LEE KAE RIN aka CERRENE

BEAST ALBUM!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-09-19T11:18:00.000+08:00

It finally came!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Album is called "Mastermind"~~~~~~~~~
‎01. Mastermind

02. Breath

03. V.I.U (Very Important U)

04. Break Down

05. Clenching My Fist Tight

MUST SUPPORT THEM AH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

bye.

Cerrene <3

F**KING GUZHENG

2010-09-19T10:51:00.000+08:00

IT SUCKS TO THE CORE.

THIS SUCKS.

WE GZ ALWAYS IS THE LAST TO STOP.

AND ALWAYS THE FIRST TO START.

WTH MAN

I HATE THIS

IF MY ORAL FAILS,

IT'S THEIR FAULT

GO DIE LAH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

IF MY FREAKING EXAM FAIL, IT'S ALSO
THEIR FAULT.

WTH SIA, WHO STILL HAVE CCA DURING EXAM ONE?!??!?!?!!?

WALAU EH!

I DUN CARE IF THE VP, OR P OR EVEN HOD OF DUNNO-WHERE COME FIND ME.

I STILL GOTTA COMPLAIN.

WAT THE FISH SIA.

NA BEI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GO DIE LAH,

BYE.

cerrene~

kekeke~~~~~~~~SHY-NESS

2010-08-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

u looking over here, makes me feel shy.

the moment our eyes made contact, i turned away~ (TOO SHY MAH~)

i wanna wave, "hi" to u, but my hand just feels too heavy.

i smiled at u, u look confused??????

i can't look at u for 20secs

confirm will look away

when u chat with me on facebook, i get excited, but i dunno why.

i dun understand why i have this kind of reaction

so irritating yet i'm loving it,

this question is running in my head.....................................................................................

do u..............like me?

SO FREAKING AWKWARD!!!!!!!

haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

SAYONARA,

CERRENE<3

me!!!!!! the saggitaurus.

2010-08-10T15:42:00.003+08:00

樂觀與憂愁：射手座人的內心不是外表看上去那麼樂觀的，因為喜歡看的遠，容易擔憂的事情也就多，在他們的字典裡，即使現在好，也不一定代表未來好，有時候很多人覺得很好的一個工作或一個伴侶，他們很輕易的就會放棄掉，可能只是因為一個毫不起眼的小原因。所以，這樣的外在表現，就讓人們覺得他們不喜歡被某件事情或某個人束縛住，追求自由的，沒有壓力的感覺。現實：常說射手座是追求夢想的人，但往往忽略了他們現實的一面，算計起來不會比處女座差哦，只是更高明更隱藏罷了。射手座人的夢想是必須建立在現實的基礎上的，一般他們很少談及自己的夢想，而是實際的去做一些向夢想靠攏的事情。如果可以借巧力完成的事情，決不會多花一點工夫。所以有時候射手座也容易給人耍小聰明的感覺。可是，不得不承認他們完成的還滿不錯。也許終其一生，他們都在考慮怎麼巧妙的做一些事情，花最少的精力去達到最好的效果。所以，很多射手座看上去讓人們會覺得很懶，但是其實他們的大腦可沒有停下過思考現實的事情。拒絕低俗：幾乎所有的射手座內心都是驕傲的，其程度絕不亞於獅子座。只不過他們不會顯現在臉上，外在的表現總是隨和的，恰當的。可是內在有著極強的自尊心，敏感也情緒化...

today.......i went karaoke for STEPH bday celebration~~~~~and also, saw....him*.

2010-08-10T15:19:00.000+08:00

WITH PERMISSION, i am allowed to go to the karaoke from 11pm to 1pm.
SO SAD. Yeah, and hor, time always seems to go so fast whenever u're enjoying urself. manage to sing the important songs like *WO AI TA* , SHERO, CHONG BAI, SHOCK(YES, FROM BEAST), AND BAD GIRL!!!!!!!! hahahaha. muhahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sadly to say, i, accurately leave the ktv at 1pm. T~T ......btw, hahas, hw haven do sia.....now i'm at shop typing this post. okay and i was going to shop, on the way to the mrt. I SAW HIM. Not JL, but is RT.....his face NEVER change. still that nerdy. hahahas.
yeah, for ppl who dun noe....i, um...........like him b4 . BUT THAT's quite long ago le. I'm SEC 3 now....that time was..like....primary 6. actually i nvr had feelings for him at primary school( we sit beside each other mah.) But maybe, after all the fight, teasing and other stuff....had me grown feelings for him. BUT..........i nvr confessed or anything larh. maybe, no courage to do so. regretted a little but i DON'T now. saw him at there was like " OMG, it's him...shit shit shit shit*covers face*......" So yeah. it was THAT kind of feelings now. and i wonder....if this year's teacher's day reached alr, and i have to go back to primary school......would he be shocked to see me? i mean, i cut my hair alr mah...grew longer hair too. hmm......mayb will get a little bit shocked? i dunno larh. lolz. why do i care sia.....aiya, dun care le larh. sian. RT was like, he seriously nvr changed and hairstyle too. hahahas. no money cut hair ah? hahahahas. btw, i saw him but he didn't see me. Oh well. watever larh. the feelings gone alr. so i dun have to like, care le.

Rt and JL, they are two different subjects. JL is a bastard but RT is a hopeless cum slow cum stupid guy.
I think RT noes but he acted as if he don't. JL was a wrong start. i dun even noe him that well sia. i felt sooooooo stupid after the clean break from him. i shouldn't have said "yes". i shouldn't have chatted with him since he doesn't give a fuck to rmb wat i told him. it was stupid. i felt like a complete fool after all the drama. i doubted he has any real feelings for me. maybe, i was just a toy he got tired of playing with. As wat G.Na sings, "the love u tossed away, u take it." TAKE IT, JL. I DUN EVEN WANT TO KEEP THIS MEMORY OF U. I deleted him from fb, msn. but i haven deleted him at tagged.com . coz i dun even want to go to the website anymore. I DUN CARE ANYMORE. u.......i was a babo. A baka. haiz.........sadded.

oh well, i just realised a typed very long post....... so, bye.

THE GIRL WHO WILL LEARN TO LIVE W/O YOU,

CL.

National day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-08-09T00:25:00.001+08:00

On National Day, i went to US!!!! yeah, one day only...... nvm! It was FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XDXDXDXDXDXD we sit the rollercoaster(my first oneXD), the mummy(egypt) one. SUPER CRAZY, SUPER SCARY. I thought my soul n body was going to seperate sia!!!!!!!!! hahahahahaha. damn, it was SCARY. Went to "HOLLYWOODS" too! hahahaha....will post the photos soon on facebook. HOPEFULLY. wakawakawaka~! it's was SIAO!Went to the land of FAR FAR AWAY, saw SHREK, and DONKEY....we went inside the palace(a evil guy's one) saw pinochio and THE THREE PIGGYS!!!!!!!!!!! AND GINGY!!!!(the ginger breadman) Saw dinosaur. the fake one. We saw the 4D movie(shrek) , it was awesome!!! got real effects somemore. We went to waterworld to catch another show. WE WAITED DAMN LONG. BUT, it was worth the wait. the show was nice.the cast sprayed water at the audiencen i kanna also...hahahaha. then , i went to sit another rollercoster at the land of FAR FAR AWAY.....THIS TIME, I HIT MY HEAD. Ouch! and my arm.....mayb, wait for a few days and u might get to see a bruise on my left arm. i actually typed this post on the 10th of august. hehheh, i went to change the time and date....XP.

Oh, for those who is wondering why i go such a far country........I DID NOT GO TO A COUNTRY LAH.
I JUST WENT TO UNIVERSAL STUDIOS. NOT USA. THERE's A DIFFERENCE U KNOW.
Hahahahaha, got quite a few kana tricked...they thought i going to USA. hahahahas.
bye-yum..................

luving u,

CL.

ALSO .......KCL ROCKS>,

~O.O~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2010-08-04T23:10:00.000+08:00

So lazy to edit....so i'll just start here.

i can freaking meet BEAST again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

B3 says that i must marry one of them, otherwise not worth it. LOLZ. >.< 不可能!!!!

HAHAHAHAS, I successfully nagged my mom for 2 day b4 she agrees to buy the samsung galaxy s.

WHO THE HELL IS ALARICE????????????????

Woah, today at school. english lesson, we go to the computer lab....b4 i even get in...................

（- > . < - ）。。。。。。。。。。。 i kana body contact with dunno who....coz i dun even want to turn behind to see sia. so pai seh loh...........(- > , < -)....but..... is accident....NOT on purpose lah.....dun noe who lah, so freaking impatient.

LAZY LAZY LAZY LAZY...............................................................................................

BYE LAH! >,<

watever lah. heck care.

2010-07-31T02:31:00.000+08:00

雨下整夜　我的愛溢出就像雨水

院子落葉　跟我的思念厚厚一疊

幾句是非　也無法將我的熱情冷卻

你出現在我詩的每一頁。。。。

lyrics quoted by 周杰伦~~
from 七里香。。。

random sia.

will edit tmr...

Lucifer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~

2010-07-24T01:52:00.000+08:00

TAemin!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAIR STYLE CHANGED! KEY TOO~ T.T ~~~~
Jong hyun, minho, and onew.....they no difference lah. go see lucifer's parody subs mv here:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_myCQi4S9VU

TMD, ccb any how talk cock......

2010-07-24T01:41:00.000+08:00

today, i'm going to tell u wat i do during this week. ONLY the CLIMAX. i scolded one ccb at her blog. stupid loh. she blogs the FALSE TRUTH. she blogs as if the humans owes her a living, like the world owes her. i try not to write dirty words on this post but i will use short forms. fkin' hard to talk to her. if she dun like me just tell it to MY FACE instead of being a COWARD that blogs behind other ppl's back and blogs she dun like me. far-girl sia. she expects other ppl to flock around her like she SUPERSTAR like that. (okay lah, seriously, singlish is getting in my way, alamak...) haiz................she even trys to influence the sec 1. i hope the sec 1s dun kana polluted.

OKAY~! HAPPY THINGS NOW!

ELBRUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2ND !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AT LEAST WE MAINTAINED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MUHAHAHAHA.

WE DEFINITELY WILL WIN SOMEDAY, JUST WAIT, VINSON!

MARK MY WORDS! WE WILL!

TODAY , i shouted like hell tgt with germaine n angie.Shouting loudly esp for elbrus, i felt good. XD

Some sad things...........................
i screamed in my room, really loud. no light no nothing. just me, n i sitting in the dark room. i cried too. i cried as if someone died. i shouted and cried like nobody's business. no one was at home that time. i had the freedom to do wat i want.

i cried , yes, because of u. u stupid jerk, i suddenly remembered u. it was painful.

i figured i did the right thing to send that sms. the last sms i send with no emotions in it. the last sms was "ok."
i think u played/toyed with my feeling coz i cannot feel that u're serious. everytime u sms me " joking or play with u only", it made it even worse. why do i even care?

dun wanna care any more.

wanna throw away my heart.

Buh-Bye~

KCL~~~~~~~~

sianz..

2010-07-18T00:33:00.000+08:00

HI_YUM~

tmd, why u so retard sia. haiz, i sometimes also talk to myself lah. i think, we're similar in some ways.

SO SICK. COUGHING n RUNNY NOSE LIKE MAD.

SOMETIMES, when i say i'm fine, i'm really NOT fine.

when i'm crazy, u might not notice the tears in my eyes as i spin myself.

i make no sense in watever i;m toking abt.

SO WATEVER.

BYE.

ps. so tired of guessing, JUST TELL IT TO MY FACE ALR.

100% ACCURATE ABT ME.

2010-07-17T00:37:00.000+08:00

射手女生可能永远也不会知道自己想要的是什么，但是她一直都很清楚，她不想要的是什么。

她总喜欢做幕后的看客，冷冷地，静静地看着一切，在她眼里，一切都在她的>意料之中，她并不觉得有什么是新奇的，如果她表现得新奇，那是因为她觉得应该这样做。她像一个看戏的人，永远置身事外.

你不要责怪她冷漠，这是她保护自己的唯一方式。她像一只刺猬，随时竖起自己身上的刺，但她的刺不会伤人，她只是用来武装自己。

她不敢要太多的爱，她怕享受完爱之后，剩下的只是加倍的痛。所以当别人对她过度宠爱时，她不但不会欣喜，反而会惊惧地逃走，她不知道怎样回报别人对她的爱，如果你得到她的喜爱，那是因为她已经知道如何面对，如何回报了。她追求那种君子之交淡如水的境界。

她懂得爱人，但她不习惯爱人，她知道爱往往伴随着恨，而恨，是太沉重的伤痛，也是太容易让人疲倦的感情。她不想痛，也就懒得去恨，于是，为了防范恨与痛的到来，她只好选择不爱，即使爱，也是淡淡的，冷冷的。别怪她，她是真的不知道如何专注。

她有时也很虚伪。不要指责她，她之所以选择虚伪，那是你勉强她做她不愿做但又拒绝不了的事，她不习惯承诺，也不懂得拒绝，她最擅长的是难为自己。她不想你难过，只好令自己难过。

她总是固执地认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，她将自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。她老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。她不知道，受伤的其实是自己。只是她不知道如何表现出来，她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样，将自己当成一个百毒不侵的人。

别以为她很洒脱，很多时候，她其实是放不下的-——她比任何人都要敏感，都要细腻，但她不会让你知道，她明白，即使你知道了，也是无济于事。她的心是把握不住的风，她渴望像风一样单纯而自由。她不是不想平静，她只是找不到平静的理由，她一生都无法明确自己在人世要扮演的角色，她只有不停地寻求，寻求自己最终的目的。如果她找到了，她会毫不犹豫地停下来，从此放弃心灵的漂泊。很遗憾，她永远也不会满足，她的追求永不停止。她的心再累，无法逼迫自己放弃梦想，梦想是她唯一的支撑点。

千万别让她失望。因为她学不会原谅，她非常渴求完美，虽然她知道世间没有绝对的完美，但，她有绝对追求完美的执着。你若令她失望，她会不可挽回地离开，即使她的心在滴血，即使痛楚重得要压垮她的生命，她也绝不回头。那个时候，你在她脸上所看到的，是让人寒心的决绝。即使她还在你的身边，她的心也早就离你十万八千里，你看不到她的恨，但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。她的离开是心灵的离开。

她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊，也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。不要问她为什么这样善变，她也不知道。当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，千万不要迷惑，不管她看起来是多么的疯狂，她内心其实是冷静的，她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤，她只是习惯-——也可以说是喜欢将一切都变得疯狂。因为她觉得这是义务，也是权利，她是制造气氛的能手，她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来，但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧郁. 她并不如你们看到的那么快乐，同样，也不如你们看到的那么忧伤，只是，她忧郁时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当她快乐时，忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。

在她的世界里，盛着的不是快乐的源泉，而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。你看到的她，笑起来像一个孩子，你有时会认为她天真得像是童话里走出来的天使。但是，你若有心，你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤，还有她的眼底，竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道。她只有在午夜无人的时候，才会完全地释放自己。她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助，她的彷徨，她的沧桑她心里的，是永远流不尽的泪。你所看到的坚强，只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。

huh? I dun understand.

2010-07-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

hi-yum~

hey, fake melissa, i gotta weird feeling that u're avoiding me. why is that so? so scared meh? everytime i log in fb, u come out. ACT CUTE AH?? wth sia.....i just want to disturb someone for a change. coz there's too much times when ppl sms me n say they very bored n want me to entertain them. i just want someone to entertain me FOR A CHANGE. Is that to much to ask? Ah, wat the f*** sia. sianz, haiz, next time i disturb ppl, die die also dun want say my name anymore. NOT FUN.
ps. I DUN BITE, FYI!

haiz, dunno alr lah. so emotional these days. if i hurt anybody in any ways, tell me off. or punch me if u want.

BTW, SPAIN WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OWNAGE OVER U, B1 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

U GOT SERVED! XD

haiz. my phone has failed me. no choice but to type here.... dear diary, wo you dian xin dong dan wo bu nen zhe yang......' i can give u a smile but after i turned around, tears dropped down on the ground.'-anoymous.

2010-07-06T00:36:00.000+08:00

facts abt me.

2010-06-20T20:03:00.002+08:00

Me: 你的內在是完全沒有安全感的，希望有個人站出來說你是他的人，他就是要保護你，你需要的是能保護你的巨人，讓你覺得自己不是孤單寂寞的，遇到事情都有人可以幫你做決定，或是提供你經驗跟答案。因為你很害怕寂寞跟孤單，所以你需要有人保護你。

Me, Me , Me.

2010-06-08T00:25:00.002+08:00

Hey yo wads up?
okays...i gonna stop acting now....i'm not cheerful AT ALL. I feel like killing ppl if it wasn't illegal. I could slash at random ppl.I could be emo all day , lock myself in the room n NEVER come out. Why is it so hard to smile? i mean...from the inside, not out. Nowadays i feel so hard to smile at a camera anymore. I felt un-natural n fake. SOMEONE help me?

I wish i could own one death note w/o their TnC..(terms n condition)

I would slash anyhow at myself if i can't feel the pain....i just dun want to invisible anymore...i HATE being invisible n alone....I hate ppl who smoke esp my family members coz i would have to wait for them to finish doing their stuff....

I want a guy who doesn't mind me being crazy abt BEAST n KyuHyun..doesn't smoke, have some fashion sense, sense of humour,taller than me, but most importantly, he'll have to LOVE me with his heart n soul. Coz i have let few ppl in my life n they have hurt me. I hardly trust anyone anymore......my heart's ripping n dripping with blood....holes that i can't fix......ppl who think u understand me...u dun, rite? after reading this, do u still want to be friends with me? I think i have different characters within me......only two at the moment has came out....hahahaha..... SERIOUSLY, i'm not joking here.

I'm insecure, always, always wanted someone to protect me. I'm a cry-baby too...wanted ppl to comfort me.I'm so imperfect in ways, that mayb u can't see. I always wish that i could kill myself w/o feeling the pain.
mayb, i should die.

DO U WANT TO ADOPT ME?

Ah, sia LAH!

2010-05-21T01:14:00.000+08:00

Watch IP Man 2 .....AWESOME FIGHT!....EXAM finished n results on-the-way. BTW, Saw Stalker SIm Again today at NP Library....why again u ask....saw him at the movie( IP MAN 2) n today...-_-''l.......Beast album alr in S'pore...still waiting to see if the pricing can go any lower.....Oh!...And also i knew of a new band!!! ROYAL PIRATES.
Lead Singer/Guitarist: MOON CHUL( quite cute sio!!!!)
DRUMMER: SOO YOON (looks like TOP frm Big Bang but he quite handsome leh!)
Bass : James Lee ( currently ....no comment....ummm...fun hair to swing here n there?)

Btw, SOO YOON is good-looking! Talented Drummer a.k.a Singer...He composed "One Hundred Roses" and "Like Butterflies" himself! He has 3 dogs but currently 2....BOOMBOOM n CANDY...the other one is called COOKIE. Lolz@ the names.

ANYWAYS, the band haven actually debuted yet....there r some videos of them on YOUTUBE...their song " DISAPPEAR" is very nice....rock input in the song....A LOT of ELECTRIC GUITAR music which make me luv it even more.

The start is like this :

telling that this is my mistake n ur not,
telling me that this is the end,
no, i hope not,
this is burning me inside
......................
the words i nv meant to say,
i told cha'
the word u wanted me to say,
i never did.
this is burning me inside........

I tried to leave this behind,
I tried to leave u afar..........

CHORUS:
WOULD U DISAPPEAR?
---------------------------------

TO BE CONTINUED~~~

PISS ME OFF AND U'LL DIE.

So Bye~!

HI-YO~

2010-03-20T13:05:00.000+08:00

hey, long time no update le......this is gonna be a very very short post.

LUVING the Song : SHOCK!
                                EASY
                                SPECIAL
                                Take Care Of My Gf (Say No)
                                Just B4 Shock

THEY ARE ALL BEAST/B2ST New SONGS FROM THEIR 2ND Album!

ENJOY!

Ps. GiGwang/KiKwang is STILL VERY VERY HOT/SEXY/CUTE/MANLY.

Luv Him!

Bye-Yum!=]

LONG tIME nO See Ah~

2010-02-15T17:43:00.001+08:00

YO!
Cerrene, here.

I'm going to be 15 this year.

I HEART AJ/Ki Kwang/Gi kwang. He's a hottie! XP

Currently luving this songs: CHANGE, SIGN, I'm A Loner, Bo Beep Bo Beep, Wipe The Tears.

NoW: wish to recieve lots of angbao with more than $2.(PLS?)
WISHES:
Become Pretty and AHEM, W/O the Pimples thankyou very much.
That Beast will Bcome MORE popular so that BEAST can come SINGAPORE!!! =D
B1 being more polite w/o the S-T-F-U, thanku.
AJ will be cuter n cuter every minute!

And and and, fufill my secret desires?XD (pls, dun anyhow think ok? thanku.)

HAIZ, IF ONLY I CAN SPEND MY VALENTINE WITH U, Aj.................hehe.

SO, WATS SUP?

2009-12-12T17:42:00.000+08:00

huh, bored to death le...........NOTHING TO DO~~ T~T
TO JL : U CAN GO THE HECK AWAY FROM ME NOW ++ ..I WILL NEVER CHAT WITH U LE!
PLUS, I CAN LIVE W/O U! STUPID BASTARD.

.....................................................................................................

watched anime AGAIN N AGAIN

EARL n FAIRY (RAVEN SOO COOL SIO>,<)

SHUGO CHARA PUCHHI PUCHHI

HITMAN, REBORN!

dk wth to do now ..........=_=.........very de sian..........

BYE LAH!

=_=

P.s (did u see the ipod come out of the profile? not purposely the de..)

huh!

BEAST IS THE B2ST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Updates!

2009-11-14T00:24:00.000+08:00

LASER TAG: DUNNO THE SCORE~~=_=
++: made more frens and noe michelle de "the ONE" !!!!!!!!! i'm still crazy now though~~hahaha

nth to say now

byes!

Sweet Dreams?

2009-11-14T00:02:00.000+08:00

i dreamt of a guy yesterday night.....he looks normal but he got 1 leg missing...but i still continued lyking this guy...its lyk continued...everyday this guy would come i will lyk run go hug that guy...then there is this one day this guycome back again then ask me to marry him...the me in the dreams agreed but i hear sth inside say "wth?" coz i think we too young...... haha weird dream sia!!!! but at least i confirmed myself that i dun judge ppl by their appearance but the inside that counts!!!!

Summarise It All!

2009-10-31T23:42:00.000+08:00

Hello, Cerrene here. I have been crazy lately. I play laser tag at a very far away place but quite fun,however,i learned that u should NEVER wear white when u play laser tag...hehe, u do noe that when we smile i see u guys' teeth? anyways, more phobias coming up..........Coz, I'M DA PHOBIA-KIA! Happy Halloween to every1 and hello to HOLIDAY!!!which is not going to be 1 REAL holiday....haiz, so many guzheng practices! We R Not SUPER-Kia OK!

Hope u DIE A.S.A.P, kelly,
Curse u,
CERRENE

OH MY GOD DAY!!!!!

2009-10-23T19:38:00.000+08:00

O.K, i going to tell u directly!......i freaked out 2day......so scary loh!!! just lyk my dream i had ....the 1 withthe guy kept asking me 2 marry him...to u , its nothing but to me , it just freaky.......btw, i encounterd a weird n crazy guy 2day....i went home after guzheng...i was going up the stairs and suddenly, the weird guy was behind me and i look at his face and i think he wanted to say sth to me or wat...i was listening to my mp3, i take out 1 of my earpiece and GUESS WAT THE GUY SAID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SCENENARIO:

W/C (weird and crazy) GUY : 我可以跟你做个朋友吗？？？(u might think this is normal but..Its NOT!)

ME: ??????????????????????????????????????????????????

( we're at the first level/floor)
W/C GUY: 我们去上面讲。

ME:(didn't heard him, but i continued to climb the stairs)

(SECOND FLOOR)

W/C GUY:（suddenly,he grab my wrist!) 我可以做你的男朋友吗？？？

ME: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????????
( I hardly noe this guy!!!and in my mind i was thinking "OMG!! CRAZY PERVERT !!!")

ME: huh???

W/C GUY:你住在哪里？？

(SILENCE)
ME: (how could i be so STUPID!! but i didn't tell wat floor!! ) 。。。“我住这里。。”

(i continued to climb the stairs...)

W/C GUY: (said sth but i cannot hear..but not bad words lah!)

ME: (weird reation)" Um, BUH BYE...."

(I CLIMBED STAIRS FAST LYK HELL!!!!!!!!)

(REACHED HOUSE BUT QUIET AS MOUSE )[coz scared the guy follow me!]

ME:" OPEN THE DOOR!"
(opened THE DOOR myself! =_=''l )

(dad saw me.)
DAD:你做什么为什么这么喘？被人追还是被鬼追??(爸有时太准了！！。。。）

NEXT SHOCKING THING

while i was typing this thing...the phone rang and i went to pick it

VOICES AT THE OTHER SIDE: [alien talk]

Me: ????

VOICES: 1.alien talk
2.ka ni na bu chao *chicken white*

(phone ended)

ME: Wat the F??

HOW CRAZY CAN PPL GET????

SIGNING OFF,
CERRENE

NEWS!!!!

2009-10-16T00:19:00.000+08:00

today is a fun and exciting day....go michella* house and met with a FIERCE dog......then we go bowling..we met up with michella* 's frenz , shirley n hirman......so freakin fun...we were busy playin and changing every1's names...like honeyew..anggoli...jam...chichabo...chli...chilli...angmo panties....jam..huaren auntie..ojisan..strawberry...so on....after that..IT RAINED LYK HELL.......but, we played at the arcade and damn fun..my bowling skills...sucky lah..but improve alittle coz 2day is the 1st time i play bowling (real life, not com. or tv)lol.....shirley compete with hirman , hong hwee, anggoli(lolz)....then hirman n shirley's classmate firdaus(should be i spell wrongly).......fun day 2day!!!

2day is also the day my ah ma n sean leong come back from china.......he seems....more disciplined??? i dun think so....but i definitely feel there is sth different...anyways, i tired now....bye bye!!

Sayonara,
ChiChaBo (-^_^-)

Wat i'm doing now....

2009-10-14T16:26:00.000+08:00

Watch anime !!!!shugo chara!!102ep leh! finish alr...ikuto-kun so hot!!! (-^_^-) going to finish hitman soon!
exam......going to finish alr!!!!!!!!!!!!! if can, go bowling!!!!!!!!!!another short short post 2day...

Bye-yonara!!!
luv,
Cerrene

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

FINALLY:

-GOT QQ ACOUNT LEH~~!!!!!!!!!
-HEADACHES SOLVED!!!

HOWEVER,

-HAIRBALL STILL AS CRAZY AS EVER (GOT MENTAL DSIORDER =D)

-HAIRBALL STILL L.O.V.E TO GIVE HW WHEN WE SAY WE DUN HAVE ANY FROM OTHER TEACHERS(BALL-LESS KING KONG)

-HAIRBALL STILL VERY FREAKED-OUT WHEN PPL NO DO HIS HW!!! (I REGULAR CUSTOMER ALR LAH~~~)

TAT'S ALL 4 NOW!!

KISSES AND CURSES,
CERRENE LEONG WYE LIN
(4 UR INFORMATION GALEN AND ANGIE AND BING-ER)

NOBODY~ NOBODY~ BUT YOU!!!! =]

2009-10-04T01:48:00.000+08:00

today i learn the Wonder Girls' Nobody dance .....lol....i still OK LAH so dun expect ME to perform for u!!!! can't memorise but still can follow hahaha.... =_=''l u might say but i

AT LEAST know how 2 do at the chorus!!!=]

Now i let the wonder baby to show off her skills!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PNKOB8Do7zE

Mayb blog more next time!!

kisses and curses,

Cerrene-the TOM BOY ;P

REMEMBER MY NAME!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

HA-LO-HA!!!!!!!!!

long time no blog coz lazy...................................

ANYWAY, i dunno y but i find rei super annoying!!!!!!!!! every time tok i would use my "evil eyes" to stare...lol.....i am not jealous loh............

totally dunno wat to say but..........................

EXAMS COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Freak-out subjects:

Science (bad)
Geography( bad)
History(unstable!)

dun wanna say anymore le....bye!

WATEVER DONG DONG!

2009-09-20T00:27:00.001+08:00

haiz...........................................................

EXAM COMING LE!!! SIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dunno wat to write now.................................

NEVER MIND LAH!!!!!!!!!

buh bye,

Soo-Yun

GM's Nephew B'day

2009-09-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

he's cute but not cuho!!!! n sean had a good time playing with him!!!! cute little girls i met at the swimming pool(attracted by Sean!!!!) hahahaha, my bro is such a girl-nizer lol...........nothi to say now

Curses4now,
Cerrene

Can Somebody Tell me How to kill a person w/o actually have direct contact with her/him??

2009-09-09T23:56:00.000+08:00

i feel lyk killing ppl rite now...............not enuff time to freaking to my darn hw ...atupid mr singh !!!!!
i feel lyk slapping everybody now.......................................now the time is 11.57 and ...AND I DUNGIVEA FCUK to any1 who irritates me now....go n die !!!

I Luv Ur Smile!!!! =] 4/9/09

2009-09-04T19:02:00.000+08:00

B4 da story, i wanted to post a shout out to my next block, "I LOVE UR MUSIC BUT DUN U THINK ITS TOO LOUD????"

I smiled half the day 2day bcoz of Dunno-Wats-his-name guy.........hehehe(no misunderstanding though!!!)....i lyk that also can....actually we didn't "actually" have a general meet .......sooooo~~~here it goes... during xday and xmonth(coz i dun rmb), Sec 1's Recess(when i was still eating tgt with ae)...i just finished my sandwich and i wanted to throw my rest-of-the-inedible-stuff away.....he was at the rubbish bin and he alr threw his stuff away(our school dustbin must lift up the cover to throw..)i was walking towards him and when i almost reach the dustbin( a few steps only!!), he closed it !!!! LOL...u noe wat i did??

I SAY: "hey!"
he turned and noticed i was going to throw my rubbish....then.....he kinda laugh-smiled(broken english here!!)

I ACTUALLY BLUSHED!!!!!!! lol.........i very long no blush de....

SO....back to the topic!!!

I........saw him ytd !!! i tot he was waving at either me , michelle or some1 else...funny lah!

AND (I DUNNO IF ITS O.M.G->[nothin related to JIE] who did this!!btw, luv ya!!) , I SAW HIM TODAY!!! HE WAS LYK MY ADRENALINE!!!..... and kept me smiling all the way UNTIL HEAVY_BOOKS_CARRYING_TIME.......my BOOKS ARE DAMN FREAKIN HEAVY(I JUST CANNOT DUN SWEAR, CAN I??) and I AM DARN SERIOUS!!!!(Oh my!!)

( )__( )
(-^_^-) lol....i can still see his smile......everytime i see i would smile ....(PLS DUN MISUNDERSTAND!!) he just look *cuho*->(CERRENE"S ALIEN SLANG!!!) to me lah!!!

OKAY, ENUFF of LOVEY THINGS!!!

AND, SURPRISE!! SURPRISE!!!!

Going to Pasir Ris to celebrate my GM's Nephew's b'day!!!! SATURDAY LAH!!!!!

WEIRD~~

2009-08-15T13:11:00.000+08:00

this is darn weird

suddenly i heard cantonese opera........
little bit scary but not that scary......

this is a darn short post...hahaha, i just can't dun swear in 24hrs, can i??
haaha, marbles kept dropping from upstairs an got alot of *piak piak* sound
definitely weird coz i heard it in the afternoon...

gz is O.K today

more ppl wanna quit especially sec 1s

hahaha, this is ur karma kp and OLD_OLD_MAN!!!

kp...u seriously need a mental checkup

and OLD_OLD_MAN....u need to go for psycho lessions to control ur temper and be patient in watever shit u do...

signing off AGAIN,

cursesandkisses,
CERRENE

JiaYou!!!

2009-08-14T20:52:00.000+08:00

being lazy~~~

OK, now i blog

my mixed feelings kept coming lyk the high tide....wat can i say??? am i a really mixed up kid???....i will keep silent 4ever if u just dun care abt me....i will cry in the wrong time and laugh at the correct time....weird sio!!!..........gz HAD been a stress...wat can i say but "STOP SHOUTING AT US, U OLD OLD MAN!!!" not in the face, though....recently being brave lyk on wednesday when gz practice finish....

THIS IS WAT HAPPPENED!!

ME =]
ANGIE =D
JIALING =]
XINHUI=p
HANXU0=]

going to go home le~~~~

no1 has the courage to go in gz room coz OLD-OLD-MAN teaching sec1....

hanxu: u go 1st leh
angie: i dun 1 to stand at the 2nd place alr~~(last time she got scolded)*i was infront of her*...weird

tokkingtokking tokking~~~

u go 1st....
u go 1st..

then~~~

pass give me

i no say anything

ppl say hanxu go in 1st

hanxu say :ok

but no went in

I...

went in !!!

1st one!!!

no get scold but angie almost get beat

hahaha

dunno is OLD_OLD_MAN 4getmy name leh or wat.....

Quotes AGAIN!!

by cerrene

放开他,
当我的伤口快愈和,
你的出现,
不是适当的时候,
因为,
我会害怕因为你的出现,
让我对爱感道害怕,
怕我又在受伤害,
怕我不能再爱,

我明白,
爱是不能勉强的,
可是,
如果你对我没有特别的感觉,
就别特意地,
玩弄我的感情,
我的心已经很累了,
又想爱又不敢爱,
因为被伤害过,
就不敢再爱

love is something ppl always take 4 granted,
love is sth that makes ppl work hard,
love is the reason why i cried,
love is the reason y i can't stop liking u,
love is the reason y i just wanna kill u

and a quote from Meg in HERCULES

ppl do crazy things when they're in luv

~Meg~

yup, i noe that

now abt sth else

I HAD BEEN listening to SORRY, SORRY from SJ

nice
and the parody is damned funny
especially the imitation from *mychonny*(not mine , is youtube the username)
laughed lyk hell loh~......

NTH ELSE TO SAY,
signing off,
cursesandkisses,
CERRENE

9/08/09

2009-08-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

2day, take some quotes from songs....good ones eh!!

Mr.对- <品冠>

我爱你就好像是爬虫类爱上茱丽叶爱你一千零一夜的那个MR.对打死了我也不退一个人敢死队不小心踩到地雷被团团包围我爱你就好像是忍者龟爱上燕尾蝶爱你一千零一夜的那个MR.对

明明天生一对别说我不配谁说MS.J一定要配MR.J 不在乎你是魔羯天蠍还是巨蟹

next!!~~~~

一切为了爱- <品冠>

一切为了爱曾经我为了爱浓情化不开是深深淡淡爱给了我悬感却不让我等待自从你离开黎明就不再来一切为了爱因为你所以爱一万次悲哀只换一个最爱百分之一百纯白的好雪白

一直相信总有一种爱无可取代因为爱不顾一切的爱才是爱

NEXT!!!!~~~~

比想像更想你- <品冠>

我发现

比想象更想你

比爱你更爱你

多的这些分离

努力是为了梦想

梦想最想到的终站原来是你

为了建立我们的天地

我游走天和地

我看清烟和云

却只能看到你

你在享受这阳光

我的阴天也就晴朗

多么神奇多爱你才有这默契

只要与你有关一切都已经没关系

Next~~!!!

if u r wondering so many 品冠 songs but i dun care!!!

this next song is wat i felt from sec2 and stopped from dunno when

无可救药- <品冠>

你每次对着我笑你的笑里面有毒药我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药

可能你从来没感觉到最好你永远感觉不到爱上你越来越无可救药

一天一天越来越无可救药一生一次爱你到无可救药

我才慢慢体会到幸福是被爱的人需要

hmm~~~ finished alr leh~~~

nvm la~~

sayonara,

signing off,

Cerrene

2009-08-08T23:02:00.000+08:00

8/8/09 funnyntiring day

1st time ppl called me rude!!
darn weird....hahaha
is ppl i dun noe....dun care lah~~she brain sth sth wrong

name's tina, claims she's 13, just msned me say i rude and asked me if i want to be sister princess with her....her bro disturbs me say y i angry with her, i asked y, he said:'u no chat with me or my sis'......2 weird ppl alr...

Friday 7/8/09

all thanks 2 stephanie 4 mentioning the stalker in my blog..

~~~this is wat happened~~~~~~~

characters:

me

stephanie

vivian

STALKER

Setting:

4got

LOLs

details:

me,steph,v, went down escalator,
I saw stalker

exclaims O>M>G

steph reacts

saw stalker

wants to call police

i say no need lar

vivian say:

if i not wrong i saw 1 guy use his hands to "strangle" himself

steph:

wth!!

wat we do???

we no offend him!!

we dunno him!!!

ah~~~!!!!

me:

shit lah....see lah ,...stephanie,y u go mention him in my blog...

now he really come out le

haiz~~~

THE END

~~~another story~~~

characters:

rebellious kido(me)
MUM(stephanie)

kid: hi mum!!
mum: hey, get ready to eat, i'm cooking
kid: no way !!! i dun wanna eat!!
mum: i hack care , i hungry, so u must eat
kid: hmpf!!! *slams door* *bamm!!*
mum: slam lah! later ur dad come back then u die!!
kid: *ignores mum*
mum:u die!!hmpf!!

Stephanie: lets just end this thing alr
me: ok, i end it
Stephanie: U win

rebel. kid: lets die tgth
mum: ok

THE END
(every1 dies)

~~~Ending of Wilbur-Some pig-~~~~

wilbur won the prize(pei zhi)(LOLZ..)

he bought charlotte's egg back to the farm

he feels excited abt the kids

egg breaks

millions of spider came out

every single 1 left him

ALOONEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Including FERN and HENDRY FUSSY

They got married 4got all abt WILBUR!!!

Poor wilbur~~~'

Cries heard EVERYNIGHT

AS IF PPL WERE KILLING HIM!!!

BUT THEY"RE NOT

THANKS TO CHARLOTTE, Wilbur life's saved

but also thanks to her 4 giving this pig loneliness

this pig

wilbur

eventually died,

coz of loneliness and.......................................

...................................................................

.......................................................................

pls try not to laugh..............................................

............................................................

AND.................................................

.............................................

H1N1 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Woooohooo~~!!!!

there's not even a single grave....

but i hack care......

THE END

like it??

funny??

not funny nvm....

:]

2009-08-01T16:14:00.000+08:00

O>M>G~~~i no post for dunno how long le

~爱情~

有人一定会受伤
有人会有幸福
我只能够傻傻的看着你
不说甚么
把我对你的爱
藏在心地
永远地~~

~后悔~
很很很后悔
那时没有勇气
没有胆子
跟你说那四个字
‘我喜欢你’
那时的我
太傻

~冰与火~
我是火
你是冰
虽然我是火
可是就是因为你太冷
把我心中里的火
给息了

~我~
虽然我并不是很漂亮
没有魔鬼的身才
没有像别人伟大
但是我有一颗心
一颗特别的心
一颗玻璃心
这颗心
很敏感
容易碎
也容易打开大门
我没有要求
只要你答应你不会
抛弃我
忽略我
不爱我
讨厌我
那就行了

~Cerrene's luv~
y always lyk/luv some1 is so painful??? whenever i lyk some1, he lyks some1 else alr....am i commiting the same mistake again?? for not having enough courage???or am i just toooo gangsta or sth???y must i always hurt ppl???y i can't breathe properly when i see him??

hate is hard
love is harder
revenge is not always bitter'
jealousy isn't sour

i am not just A girl...
i have many characters inside of me
i can have different emotions in n out
i can tok to myself
i can i can still smile while i'm crying inside
i can laugh while it still hurts

i can't control my emotions
i can't control my tears
i can't control my anger
i can't control myself

AND LASTLY

I JUST CAN'T CONTROL MYSELF LYKING SOME1

sometime i just hate myself

just feeling useless

worthless

loveless

but not heartless

~Memories~
(not related to cerrene)
sweet,sour,bitter,salty...
watever taste just bland w/o
the special HIM
u wanna be the last woman of his
n he wants to b the first man of urs

Copyright ah!!
No copy!!
Copy u die!!
but.......
unless u ask 1st!!!

signing off,
tired-of-everything-CERRENE

I hate m!!!

2009-07-26T00:59:00.000+08:00

she was the stupid stupid person who made my life sucks like hell...she's the reason y i can't pass my 2.4 run......i hate her........write more next time...
sayonara,
Cerrene

~no title~

2009-07-18T01:38:00.000+08:00

i just going to write boring things........................xx actually not all bad............oh!!! 1thing !!! i SKIPPED G 2day!!!!!!!! 2day is is i-have-courage-day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahaha...lame rite?? i 1ST time leh!!!!! Damn happy!!! haha......cruella and old monkey went Japan 2day...... alittle sad but....angry too!!! sigh, y no bring ME go?????

Story

Cat* is in pri 5, teacher suddenly arrange Cat* to sit with Rat*....they WERE enemies, they were fighting everyday and cat's god-sis even say if cat lyks rat.... one day, suddenly, cat fell in luv with rat..... cat was shy and did not tell any1 but god-sis.......god-sis told every1.......cat blushes when she sees rat......rat is a "perfect".(lyk councilor*)................cat walks out of the hall and saw rat..rat uses the file to cover......(broken english here!!) ......
..........pri 6......
cat is felling hard for rat.........one day, cat noe that rat alr liked some1 else..........cat cried ....HARD..........her heart was as if it was torn into pieces..........cat acted strong and went through the primary school......
~~~Sec School~~
Sec1
Cat was still NOT over rat.........rat had a friend....a girl 1.....her name is Mag.....Mag told cat not to worry as she will not be rat's GF............unfortunately, she was a big, fat, Liar...........................................Cat was damn angry...........she saw rat sometimes.....she still had feeling for him........until one day, she GOT OVER HIM!!!!!!...........................................................................and that was At the end of sec 1.....hurray 4her....................Mag came again on the MSN....told Cat the rat is going to transfer to other school.....mayb rat's crush's school...........she dun give a shit abt it and she was strong..... so damn strong....(physically too! hahaha!).................she lived her life lyk other normal ppl, .......with a scar in her heart..............cat was strong but fragile on the inside............cat's heart was lyk a crystal heart.......€at is some1 i noe.........not my sis lah..i dun have sis....

The End(for now!)

Cerrene here signing off,
Sayonara!!!! =]

2009-07-15T12:54:00.000+08:00

now in school doing survey.......................lame lah...........if got listing mayb Nb will be the second last.............hahaha LOL
signing off,
Cerrene

I'm Alr Back :]

2009-06-30T16:17:00.000+08:00

genting is cold and fun....just play indoor and outdoor theme park...outdoor 1 very very very cold.....share bed with 3 ppl on 1st day then 2ppl on 2nd day.......................2day saw ** and disturb xx...........i hate mr singh he idiot............

no morebs ,
sayonara,
CERRENE

RandomQuotes n 1 yo mama

2009-06-10T00:57:00.000+08:00

Boy, if u underestimate me, i'll make u sorry when u were born!!!!!

Let him leave, if he come back, it was meant to be, if he doesn't, IT'S HIS LOSS!!!!!!(half half is mine ;D )

I HATE YOU!! GO AWAY!!!!

Y R U ALWAYS APPEARING WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO FORGET U????????

MY HEART IS LYK GLASS, U KNEW THAT, BUT U STILL BROKE IT!!!!!

IS THAT UR FACE OR UR BUTT??????/

UR MOM IS SO FREAKING UGLY, WHEN SHE WENT 4 DA UGLY COMPETITION, THE JUDGES SAID," SORRY!!NO PROS' ALLOWED!!!!"

Da ExCiTeMeNt!!!!!!!!

2009-06-10T00:54:00.000+08:00

few more days and i'm going genting!!!!!!! hurray!!! but still got hw!!! sian loh kao pei!!! sigh~~faster do finish hw!!!!! bought new clothes!! but haven come yet~~ hoope there isn't any big difference from the picture~~~~~~

The Re-Opening of DA' Cane!!!!!

2009-06-10T00:51:00.000+08:00

2day, Sean got caned!!!!coz he opened the car door....then he came back home and got caned by Cruella!!!!!!! sigh!! he cried and after that ihelp him apply medicine........its the re-opening of DA cane!!! hope no more lah!!!!!!!!!!

Randoming~~~

2009-05-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

mAD AT YOU, MAD AT ME, MAD FOR NOTHING I DONE...................ALL I EVER WANTED WAS A SIMPLE WAY OF GET RID OF U......SO THIS IS WAD IT FEELS LYK TO CRY.......U GOTTA HELP ME OUT I'M GOING CRAZY LIAO~O~~~.....U R TAKING ME FOR GRANTED...IT'S OK, IT'S ALRIGHT , ITS NOT LYK I COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT U....U SPIN MY HEAD RIGHT ROUND RIGHT ROUND WITH ALL DA PRESSURE I'M GOING 2 DIE LIAO..............I WANNA WHACK U RIGHT NOW NOW NOW..I WANNA WHACK U RIGHT NOW NOW NOW... WISH I WASN'T SO GOOD TO U .......I'M SEARCHIG FOR A FACE.... NO FOOTSTEPS ON THE GROUND,NO THERE WASN'T A SOUND.....I DUN LUV U LYK I DID YTD...I JUST DUN LOVE U NO MORE.....THORE SIMPLE WORDS HIT SO HARD THEY TURN ME UPSIDE DOWN, CAUGHT ME COMPLETELY OFF GUARD......U R HOTTHEN U'RE COLD....U PMS LYK A B!TCH I WOULD NOE....I'M TOTALLY NOT SORRY...LIFE SUCKS

ENOUGH OF RADOMING

Sayonara,
Cerrene-da-emogirl

Continued of F*king day (details)

2009-05-27T22:55:00.000+08:00

the freakish auntie: i just close my eyes den she use her elbow to smack against mine...2 times!!!(i close eyes 2 times she do me 2 times!!!wtf she trying do???) i use my hp to sms my classmate and there she was .. trying to look at it!!! she wear her specs n starts lookin...i kept turning my hp to myself and she comes closer a little...scary loh....then finally she got off the 804....

M dun trust me n scolds : coz of cruella loh~~~damn her ..cruella asks how long from when i start 2 use the com....i say abt 9+ ..then she ask Ar and Ar say bullshit/crap...i kana scolded ....

Cruella KEPT emphasizng on " Lying": sometimes i just feel lyk slapping her / box her but i can't ....coz she "older" so cannot loh~~~"u lied ....@!#$%^^%&&%bullshit " she says.....my mind: watever loser!!!!!!

Going Emo : Still Feel lyk killing myself...kept thinking on ways of sucide...blood.....death....nextlife.....

details r all DAMN true ....

sayonara,
Cerrene-Emoing

F*king Day of my life.....

2009-05-27T22:43:00.000+08:00

Warning: Tis post going to contain alot of bad words!!!

Why is it a f*king day?
let me tell u why the f*king hell it is.......

1)2day got detention coz late
2)a freakish auntie disturbs me
3) M dun trust me and scold me for f*king hell nothing!!!!!!!!!!
4a)cruella thinks i lied!!!(wtf!!!!)
4b)cruella farted AT me not just farted but AT me .........shit her man!!!
5) stupid Ar say i do com damn f*king early( not true loh!!!)
6) i am going to be very emo.........

thaats why

today is a fucking day of my life damn fucking unlucky

signing off,
sayonara,
Cerrene da Emo

Day in Zoo(1)

2009-05-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

2day go zoo...aiya, i summarise lah...ok..we go zoo..saw alot of animals...eat KFC.....take alot of photos...raining....go home...(btw i saw angie with her family)

the animals!

Kind Ol' Me

2009-05-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

why am i born so freaking kind and helpful??????? ppl says it is good, i noe it's good but i am WAY to kind...i.......i just .....when ppl wantsme 2 help, i CANNOT refuse as it's my nature :helpful.............but way too serious le ...they ask me 2 do sth 4 them, if i say cannot, they will lyk"pls?pls?", then i :"ok."......sigh...nvm....

Nowtodayyesterday~~alot of days~

2009-05-13T20:17:00.000+08:00

Good mood????dun noe lah mayb later change??????u nv noe~~~~~but now is ok ok lah...i juz found out 2day Michelle same me is the Anything Gurls...we talked alot abt ur nightmares and stuffs , talk alot abt other things(dun tell u!!!!) , saw alot of things, but we all noe tat our ENEMY now is EXAM!!!!!!! Lets send this thing flying!!!!!! i posted alot of photos on facebook...then now is mayb going to study or sth ..........science 2moro!!! I dun lyk Science!!!!!!!!! Alot of things happened....me now is all write in broken english but i still noe my english lah.....BTW I HATE UPSIDE-DOWN FACE TIGER!!!!!!!!!!!! Mr Yong Treated us food n bubble tea......expensive loh.....

Special Thanks/Shout Out

MICHELLE

THURA

DANICA

Thanks 4 carrying my duper heavy books!!!!!!!!

Next....

Boon-er

Pei Zhi

Aiyo...stop fighting lah........

Next...

Angie

Aaron

Vivian

Other Ppl

Solve ur problems.....carefully...:)

Next....

Every1

Good Luck 4 DA Exams...Study!!!!!... :D

Last but not Least

Myself

Go study lah.....gogogoggogogogooo!!!!!!!!!!!

sayonara,
Cerrene

If I Were A Boy~~Beyonce

2009-05-05T22:59:00.000+08:00

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better manI
'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go'
Cause I know that she'd be faithfulWaiting for me to come home, to come home
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong
But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

It's alright, It's OK ~~Ashely Tisdale

2009-05-05T22:42:00.000+08:00

You told me there's no need
To talk it out 'cause its too late
To proceed and slowly
I took your words
And walked away
No looking back
I wont regret, no I will find my way
I'm broken
But still I have to say
It's alright, okay
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
Alright, okay
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
Alright, okay
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
You played me, betrayed me
Your love was nothing but a game
Portrayed a role
You took control
I couldn't help but fall
So deep
But now I see things clear
It's alright, okay I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
Alright, okay
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
Alright, okay I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
Don't waste your fiction tears on me
Just save them for someone in need
It's way to late
I'm closing the door
It's alright, okay I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
Alright, okay
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
Alright, okay I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
It's alright, okay
Alright, okay
Without you
No matter what you say
It's alright, okay Alright, okay Without you
I won't be sorry

HELP!!!!! HELP!!

2009-04-23T21:11:00.000+08:00

Y AM I INVISIBLE AGAIN ?????? YYYYYYY? I HATE BEING INVISIBLE!!! ARGHHHHHH!!!!! PPL ACTING BITCHY, GAY, SISSY~~~i feeling EMO today....sigh....dunno wat to write le... just some1 go disable my invisible shield can?? i dunno how ...(the invisible shield is no 1 can see de..) only sometime ppl can see me and talk to me....BYEBYE!
sayonara~~~

Cerrene :)

GOLD GOLD GOLD!!!!!

2009-04-22T14:22:00.000+08:00

ytd

i found out that guzheng get GOLD!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOHUUUU!!!!!!!!! YIIPEE!!!!!!!!!! I going to have a new camera!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I so happy i jumped to the moon!!!!!!!!!!!
GOLD SIO!!!!!!!!THEY SAY THEY GO EAT STEAM BOAT BUT I DUN CARE !!!!!!!!!!!!!I JUST VERY DAMN FREAKING HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NEXT TIME AIM 4 GOLD WITH HONORS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

muacks,
Cerrene~~~

2009-04-17T00:13:00.000+08:00

Sth wrong with the blog so i go do again now dun have anythingbut laterthat i put more things....